Planning

I don't have a plan, I just want to do the next good thing for me. ~ Steve Zahn
We can't plan life. All we can do is be available for it. ~ Lauryn Hill

I'm by nature such a huge planner. I plan my days, my weeks and my years. I have to know where I'm going so I can mentally map out how I'm going to drive. There is very little about me that unplanned. However, everything that I've planned in the last 3 years has turned out to be something totally different from my expectations.

I didn't even know I had such a wildly adventurous side until I moved to California to become me. That was unplanned, and meeting Norio was definitely random, however two years later I have this whole different life. It's been a whirlwind of changes and exhilarating yet challenging periods and yet through it all, I'm still here. I'm still standing. I'm still strong.

So, the next chapter of my life is not something that I can map out like when I did my five year plan or 10 year plan. All I know is that no matter what, everything is going to be alright and I'm going to end up right where I'm supposed to be.

Happy.

Full Moons

The moon is at her full, and riding high, Floods the calm fields with light. The airs that hover in the summer sky Are all asleep to-night. ~William C. Bryant

For the last couple of days I have been tracking the moon. First it was only a quarter then it went up to half and BOOM tonight we have a full moon and my mind is taking back to the numerous stories my grandma used to tell us outside under the full moon. Back then, life was simple, when it rained we danced outside, when there was a full moon we got story night, when the sun set we went home. No need for umbrellas, flashlights or lanterns. I don't mean to sound anti-technology but it seems that the more inventions just take away from the beauty. I'm trying to envision my home in Oregon with grass and flowers and then I remember that I will not really get the chance to enjoy it because I will be at work and so I will need to purchase landscape lighting in order to fully savor the sight and then I will have to work overtime to pay for the electric bill.

And the story continues.
We work to pay for what we never enjoy because we are working.

Inside and Out

It is hard to eat right. It is hard to drink only good stuff. It is hard to exercise everyday. It is hard to do the whole healthy clean living thing. But I have a new point of view that just might scare you straight. It is not 100 percent full proof but it has helped me on numerous occasions (esp. when the couch is screaming my name and the gym is but a whisper). I have this grand-aunt of sorts that most people would consider eccentric but she really is a wonderful and caring person once you get to meet her. Yes, she believes that her way is the best and only way to go but she enforces it not because she wants to be right but because she believes that it will make your life easier. I don't know if that makes any sense at all. So here is the story, one day she walks into our house and tells my mom that she needs a colon cleanse. She sites numerous "doctors" and I can't remember if my mom got it or not the point is that the whole process might be painful but it does in fact clean you inside and out. I want to avoid this and so the image of the whole process has left an imprint on my subconcious that I carry a JUG of water with me everywhere I go.

House

Okay this might be the one time that I use the word house and I am not describing or fantasizing about my dream home. Today is the day that it returns, today is the day that I have to deal with his rude comments. Today is the day that I will have to watch him speak to others in such a dehumanizing way and do nothing. Today is the day that words like pulse oximeter, lidocane, charge to 30, multiple sclerosis turns me on. Today is the day that the sight of his cane makes me laugh. Today is the day that HOUSE returns to TV.

I only have to wait a couple of more hours.
I don't know if I can make it.

My dream home oooooo

Okay so here I am again in major dream mood thinking about my house that I haven’t bought yet and the kitchen that I haven’t seen yet in a state I haven’t been to yet. Okay so here’s the story I on one of those online dream shopping sprees in which your credit cards are safely hidden in another country and I start to get hungry so it isn’t a surprise when I find myself envisioning and accessorizing my kitchen. Growing up with pots and pans bought from Family Dollar has severely diminished my expectation but Macy and Sears and Berndes cookware has put my dreaming in overdrive.

Boyz thinking they are men.

I am officially pissed. I mean in this day and age when people are praying for cures from cancer. When kids are going to bed hungry and others are praying for rain so that they can quench their thirst, it pissing me off to have to be in the presence of boyz who think that God should reward their pathetic efforts and give them more toys. Boys and toyz, I think I should get my sister to write some poetry to lambaste their idiotic endeavors. She just wrote something that encapsulates the whole boyish mentality in general but i think she needs to get a lil' bit more specific. Some guy who is suppose to be a pastor took time during a prayer meeting to ask God for a 2008 Mercedes S class, keep in mind that this guy does not have a study job and hasn’t had one in the last 10 years. I mean when people that call themselves pastors start asking for cars they can’t afford doesn’t this encourage all those college kids to start pursing dreams about 2010 BMW and others start fasting for some Chrysler 300 accessory. Please nonsense, but yeah I guess boyz will always be boyz regardless of their vocation or age.

Sextuplets

I’m wondering what would happen if I ended up with sextuplets or even just quadruplets. After all the media hype and the special on Lifetime, what comes next? I am very sure that the diapers donated will run out sometime before the kids turn two. So what do I do next. I don’t consider myself a big shopper, I like to think that I shop as necessary and that I am not a shopaholic who lives for malls and new shoes and outfits. I remember when we were kids my mom always used to dress me and my younger sisters alike. So maybe that is what I need to do, some quality wholesale clothing at discount prices every 6 months. Of course this will be mad expensive but then again why am I stressing, there are a couple of mountains that need to be scaled in order for this to happen and I am no where near putting on my Nikes talk less going outside and finding a mountain.

what

There are infinitively many powers of 2 (pigeons), and only 2001 remainders when these numbers are divided by 2001 (pigeon holes). That’s why there are two powers of 2 that give the same remainder when divided by 2001. The difference of these powers is a multiple of 2001.
We are looking for 3k which ends with 001. This is the same as 3k - 1 being a multiple of 1000. Similarly to problem 1 we can prove that there are two powers of 3 that differ by a multiple of 1000. Let’s call these powers 3n and 3m. Factor their difference into diet pill
3m is relatively prime with 1000 (it is neither a multiple of 2 nor a multiple of 5), so 3n-m - 1 must be a multiple of 1000.
This problem is simular

what

There are infinitively many powers of 2 (pigeons), and only 2001 remainders when these numbers are divided by 2001 (pigeon holes). That’s why there are two powers of 2 that give the same remainder when divided by 2001. The difference of these powers is a multiple of 2001.
We are looking for 3k which ends with 001. This is the same as 3k - 1 being a multiple of 1000. Similarly to problem 1 we can prove that there are two powers of 3 that differ by a multiple of 1000. Let’s call these powers 3n and 3m. Factor their difference into
3m is relatively prime with 1000 (it is neither a multiple of 2 nor a multiple of 5), so 3n-m - 1 must be a multiple of 1000.
This problem is simular


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Changes

If we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we aren't really living. ~Gail Sheehy

I'm in a constant wave of change. Just when I start getting comfortable in this lifestyle things happen to create change. In the past I used to have great angst when changes happen, however now for some reason I'm looking forward with great expectations.

1. Norion & I are going to buy a house.
2. In Oregon
3. Which means I'm switching jobs but not careers

Cali has been great, it will always be the state of great adventure and possibilities for me, but now I'm ready to move on to the next chapter of my life. I'm so excited.

Netflix baby

Netflix vs. Blockbuster
So who has won out in your home, Netflix or Blockbuster? I have a brief stint with both, yes Netflix did introduce us to the whole movies in your mailboxes but Blockbuster has the whole go to the local shop and get another one that day. So just out of curiousity which one do you use and why. My kid sister is a Netflixer mainly because she doesn’t have a blockbuster in her town and my other sister uses both and cancels them and then renews them all over again and my third sister I don’t think she uses either one of them.

I’m a Netflixer.

Dream homes don't exist

I thought that IKEA was the place to go. Being that I am on this whole future home decoration window shopping spree I figured I should start at the place that is receiving rave reviews from my sister and all the other educated twentysomethings. WASTE OF MY FREAKING TIME. There are these blinds that I thought would go well with my whole living room theme and after spending a whole day at IKEA and browsing ETHAN ALLEN I came to the conclusion that if I wanted them I would have to create them myself.

Addictions are the DEVIL

Addictions are the devil, I would like to think that I am a super human and do not feel the pull to become addicted but that is a lie. We all have these huge habits that started out as tiny bubbles that has taken over my life. I have a friend whose brother got locked up because of drugs and being that he is black and not white he didn’t get the whole drug rehabilitation thing. No, he got locked up and now is spending a huge chunk of his youth behind bars. So yeah, addictions suck and they are the devil.

I want light

This is another episode of my dream home window shopping spree. Like every other female on the planet I have a thing for lights. Some people need both lights and mirrors but I’m more of a light person there has to be sufficient light in my home, I don’t care about the electrical bill or any of that other conversation junk when I want to read I want to see when I take a walk outside I don’t want to have to stub my toe on a pebble. SO Today I find myself checking out kichler lighting fixtures. It seems like the whole conservation movement is gaining momentum because on every website that I check out every single one was talking about voltage and conservation and all I want is a pretty light thingy on my front porch.

Bye Bye Hugh

I used to have this crush on Hugh Jackman. Yes, it started with X-Men, something about the whole rugged and tortured soul reached out and grabbed my heart. So in an effort to exorcise myself of the Hughiness I decided to have a Hugh Jackman maranthan.

EEEER. Wrong move. His earlier stuff was charming but the more recent films are acting a bit disturbing. Have you had the time to watch THE PRESTIGE or THE FOUNTAIN. I sat down and tried to figure out the movie and the more I tried the more confused I got. The FOUNTAIN is a classic case of genius gone crazy. Hugh loves his wife and so he embarks on this quest to find a fountain of youth which of course is hidden in a garden of life somewhere in South America. Let mii stopnoovie and then maybe you will be able to come back and vent about how ridiculous it was.

Ciao

Football WHAT

My sister has recently developed a fascination for football. I actually think it has become an obsession. Here’s the story I call her about a week ago, I think it was last Thursday to ask about her purse that was supposedly missing and all she can say is that “We’re winning” at this point I’m confused because I thought she was talking about my family and then she said Indianapolis is winning, the colts are winning.

WHAT! We are Nigerians, we DO NOT watch American football. The only football we watch has been demoted to the ranks of soccer so I was puzzled by the intensity in her voice and then she proceeds to lecture me about the league and the New England Patriots and how the Indianapolis Colts are related to the New York Giants because of the quarterbacks and how she doesn’t like Tennessee football and by this time I have tuned her out. So yeah to all of those converted football freaks stay away from my house.

I'm Back

Wow! I'm finally back from my trip to NYC and let me tell you, it's a whole new world out there. It was crazy and hectic and even though I'm glad to be back, and miss New York. I even went all sentimental and got one of those I Love NY t-shirts that they were selling all over the place. Big ups to my friend Naomi Campbell who came through even though she was atrociously lost on the train/subway system. Homegirl almost found herself in a Pigeon Forge cabin rental before she realized that she was going the wrong way.

My sister's wedding reception was off the chain, I saw people that I haven't seen in years...and I mean, literally years! It was like a huge reunion festival all up in the hizzy. And I must say, my darling kid sisters were looking hella cute, I can't believe they are all grown up.

Anyway, I have lots of cleaning, unpacking and laundry to do. Hope your Labor Day weekend was the shiznit.

I'm baaaack! Now I have to unpack, do laundry and come back to blog:)