Tuesday, March 20, 2007


The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time. ~ Mark Twain

As relaxing as this weekend was it did allow alot of time for introspection. For some reason people around me have been a tad morbid and this did nothing to alleviate my morbid musings. I saw the trailer & interview with Sandra Bullock on the movie Premonition and couldn't even fathom how shattered I would be if something ever happened to my sweetie. I don't even think it would be possible for me to live after that...I would just be existing.

The sad part is that noone would really understand the loss and mourn on the same level that I would be on. The connection we have is so amazing, so symbiotic, that it would be worse than losing a loved one, it would be like losing myself.

Dealing with sickle cell, I've always been aware of my morbidity and the frailness of my body. But even those thoughts don't make me want to throw in the towel, settle back and let my fam collect on my death insurance. I know that if it ever came to it, I would fight for life with every ounce of my being.

I guess that's what being alive is all about.


Kafo said...

i would object
i would like to believe that being alive is more than just fighting for every ounce of your life just so u can spend one more second with your beau.
cuz if that is what life is about then ppl like mii r SCREWED

Vixen said...

Omo...you are so not on the same page. Chill jare!