Monday, March 06, 2006


The most splendid achievement of all is the constant striving to surpass yourself and to be worthy of your own approval. ~ Denis Waitley

Each day that I get up, I'm amazed that I even have any life in me at all. The days are blurring together in a mass of mediocrity and monotony that is bound to drive even the most excitable person into a truly introspective state.

There isn't anything wrong with me, I'm doing great. I have nothing at all to complain about, I have a roof over my head, food in my stomach and loving friends and family around me.

And yet...I want more.

More of everything, more challenges, more work, more drama, more things to write about. The highlight of my day shouldn't be my exploits in the gym...that is banal, that is trite and I don't think anyone wants to hear of how I burnt 200 odd calories that evening.

I feel like all around me the world is moving and I'm stuck in a vacuum, a void of stagnancy. It's not the fact that I'm bored, for truly I'm not. I get invited to events all the time but end up turning most down just to stay home and be introspective. Remember last year when each weekend was a whirlwind of all kinds of interesting activities? Well this year, I can't even be bothered. I have no wish to do anything, I feel that mindless entertainments are only wasteful and shortlived.

I want more. I need more.


NML said...

And you will go after more. We only get frustrated when we stop moving.

Poetic Justice said...

Get off the fence of self pity and realize the very fact that you are here is something to write about.

I know you feel down and out but remember that the cloud is just about to pass (yea yea yea, we been saying for four long years...What movie?)

Anyway, take to heart that love, life, work and drama are just around the bend.

serendipity said...

i understand how you feel. you just want all the excitement you had before. believe it or not, I am feeling the same now. feeling as though i dun feel like doing anything like going to the beach every weekend or going for dance classes and no longer I am going out with friends after school coz of the stupid boring job which i am stuck in now....

Vixen said...

NML, thanks sweets,

Poetic, isn't that ummm, Independence Day?

Skybellz, I guess this is just a phase for both of us. It will get better.

So they say.

Poetic Justice said...

And the academy for best movie line recaper goes to Vixen!

Vixen said...

yeah whatev! That was such an easy one!

"Once, just once. if you do that again, we are not sisters."

Virginia Belle said...

We all have this phase from time to time. something will happen soon that will shake everything up. it always does. because if we were go!go!go! all the time, we'd be just as miserable as if it were blah,blah, blah all the time. life's a series of highs and lows.

maybe it's time to read one of those books that tell you 1,000 things to do before you die. hmmm...i think i might pick one up too...either that or re-read my new years' resolutions...

Poetic Justice said...

Okay Mysterious! I am the best
"Legends of Fall"

And now for the winning line "it's the sense of touch..."

Vixen said...

Crash baby!!! I just saw that the other day:)