Sell Out

Fear is the only true enemy, born of ignorance and the parent of anger and hate. ~ Edward Albert

There are two things which cannot be attacked in front: ignorance and narrow-mindedness. They can only be shaken by the simple development of the contrary qualities. They will not bear discussion. ~ Lord Acton

It's almost 2AM and I cannot sleep. A single snapshot of my day keeps playing over and over in my mind, chasing away the lull of slumber with villianous energy. Perhaps if I get this out there, it will be off my chest and then I will be able to enjoy my beautiful night.

My beau and I had just come out of a restaurant around 6 pm today, and as usual, we were both in our little world; laughing, talking, holding hands and totally immersed in each others' company.

But, I'm a Bmore chick, and even in all instances, you gotta keep your eyes open. From the corner of my eye, about 20 paces behind us where 2 black boys. (Using men would be too nice) If not for the fact of the totally ignorant comment they made, I would have gone on my merry way without giving them a second thought.

"Sellout. Stick with your own kind!" they shouted at me.

WTF?? I immediately flipped them the bird and kept on walking, deciding that to deign them with an answer would be an exercise in futility. Plus, if I did call Jason's attention to them, he was liable to open up a serious can of WHUP ASS just for the disrespect. He's a competitive mixed martial arts fighter, and they wouldn't stand a chance. My baby is not a violent man by nature, but to protect my tender sensibilities, I know that he would do whatever it took.

It was more shocking to me than anything else. I lived on the East Coast. Especially in a city like Baltimore, I would expect such a racist, narrowminded comment. But this is Cali ~ the Bay Area is the most multicultural place that I have ever been in, a melting pot of all nations and races. I've seen people look at us whenever we went out, but it was more looks of courtesy and smiles. We are sooooo cute together! Hey, I may be Black, and my man is White, but we are in LOVE! Everyone who looks at us for a second can tell that.

So why am I still pissed? I guess because my guards were down. I had come to enjoy the peaceful, harmonious area that I moved to, where it didn't matter who was what. It was my first racial slur....(yeah, I've had it good). Guess the harsh jolt of reality shone light on the fact that this world is seriously more messed up than I thought.

People do not make conscious decisions who they fall in love with. Love is totally blind to nationality, race, creed or religion. The world has gone global and you need to realize that and get with the program. Jason treats me waaaaaay better than any other man that I have ever dated. I wasted almost a decade of my life on Black men and all it earned me was pain and heartbreak. So stop pissing in my Cool-Aid and go get a life.

I don't know you, mind your fucking business. You're just jealous cos you have to hang with your boys because you have no girl. No woman in her right mind would put up with your stupidity and ignorance.

I love Jason. And he loves me. Plain and simple. If you don't like that, shove it where the sun don't shine.

I love, love, love my sexy, handsome, thoughtful, passionate, intelligent, gentle, beautiful, kind, strong, ambitious, funny, muscular, spiritual, deep, romantic, driven, stimulating, adoring, organized, independant, supportive, inspiring, communicative, rational, family oriented, sociable, adventurous, modest, loving White man and he is ALL MINE!

So yeah, Fuck you!

(Ok, I feel better now. Off to bed! Thanks for listening)